Saturday, July 21, 2012

Saturday morning

This morning I find myself arguing with myself. After the senseless tragedy in CO at the movie theatre, I feel so grateful that no one I love was involved, but also so heart stricken for those who were.
How horrible it must have been waiting to hear if loved ones were alive or passed. How horrible must the parents of the shooter feel. How deranged must that young man be to have done this. How fragile we are... all of us.

The argument with myself stems from something that confronts me often in my work.
Do we chose our paths? Do we agree to go through the horror that some people suffer? How could we, knowingly as spirits ready to incarnate, decide to take on a life of such grief? But then again, all lives must have good and not so good, right? I question myself, trying to understand, is this all karmic? If so, then doesn't this type of action reap more karma to be worked out? Is this a never ending cycle?

I can only find solace in the fact that everyone has a purpose to bring whatever he or she can to this world. Whether it be good or bad depends on observers' perception. No doubt, going into a movie theatre and randomly murdering and wounding others is bad. It is almost unthinkable, but it has happened, just as other tragedies have happened and no doubt will continue to happen.

So, what makes us, as living spirits, want to continue on? Want to keep experiencing incarnations? Lessons we are to learn? I am sure this has a great deal to do with it, but also, I think we are spiritual beings having human experiences, over and over. I believe our true spiritual beings want to experience life as human beings. After all, what is more wonderful than seeing a baby smile, gaining wisdom from an elder, sensing love in all its forms just by being alive?
But, what hurts more deeply than losing a loved one, knowing your child has taken the lives of others, or even wondering if you should continue attending movies? Life is so mysteriously unbalanced and balanced.

As in nature, we have to experience the good with the not so good. Life giving rains can become life threatening floods.Cooling winds can become destructive tornadoes... and on and on.

My argument with myself helps me to try and make sense of senseless actions. And this argument will continue as long as I am a spiritual being in a human body.

Sometimes, there are no clear answers. Sometimes, all we can do is pray for others and ask that all our lessons be gentle.


  1. We humans must not succumb to fear. That is what I know. This is a beautiful post, MariJo, thank you!

  2. Wow! Very profound. Aurora, CO was a devastating tragedy, do doubt. I ask myself how someone so young and intelligent can get things so wrong. I hope that the victims and families of the decedents are able to find a good purpose for themselves and others out of this horror; and that medical and mental sciences will find new clues to help others in the future that may have been exhibited by this young man so that no other atrocities such as Aurora recur.

  3. We were talking the other day about which people among us have the biggest impact on the evolution of human consciousness...the good like Ghandi, Martin Luther King, Mother Teresa, etc or the "bad" like Hitler or Kaddafy or this shooter. Or do they have equal affects? Both are getting us to pray more, act more, feel more appreciative for what we have, not take for granted what preciousness we enjoy. This was horrific. But the outcome and long term affects can bring us closer to the divine.

  4. from Susie Engel:

    Thank you for your insightful words. this event seemed closer to home since my daughter and grandkids live a couple miles from the shooter's apt. It seems that kids are growing up in a world where fear is rampant. I hope that it can be a reminder of how quickly this life can go by and that death on this plane is not the end. We get to live life full of love and enjoy the beauty that surrounds us and leave for the next generations which could be our own spirits

  5. From Suzanne Z. Murphy

    The tragedy of this affects all of us.
    I don't believe that such an action is Karma; if we somewhere have a choice to live a difficult incarnation, we still have choices.
    Many people live with mental illness without making such a heinous choice.
    Still, having said that I know we cannot know what goes through anyone else's choice making process.

    I have heard that the man who shot Gabby Gifford, who has since been taking medications, has wept realizing how in his illness he made such terrible decisions.
    So for me it comes back to our trying to remember our connectedness, and to pray for one another, and for ourselves.
    May we continue to be grateful, and help one another.