Monday, July 5, 2010


So many thoughts running inside my mind this morning.
Up early to take litte Hercules (my fox terrier) for a walk in my litte sanctuary here in Candler. How much longer will I be here to do this, I wonder. Soon, this house and land will belong to someone else. I pray that this person, or persons, will understand how much love and care I have put into this house and acerage for the past nine years.
Will appreciate the deer, the red foxes, the wild turkeys, the crows, ravens, pilated woodpeckers, butterflies, hummingbirds, bats, etc., who have spent time with me here.
So much ceremony has gone into this land; so many wonderful spiritual workshops, readings, gatherings have happened here in this lovely house. And now, I am being asked to move forward.
Where? I don't know for sure yet and this causes a stir in my fear mode. I do trust but I am a woman who wants to know things - and as soon as I type this, I am reminded that timing is everything.

This past weekend has been a weekend of work: staining the deck, clearing out old papers, packing, learning to walk through an empty house. July 4 was also the birthday of my first son, Dustan Paul, who passed to Spirit at the age of 8 months. So long ago but still so fresh in my mind.

I am being told over and over to be grateful. And I am. Being grateful doesn't take away memories, but it does put me back into the moment.

Life goes on and so do I...trusting the unknown until timing reveals the next phase of my journey.


  1. How did you know I needed to read this today? You are a wonderful role model of someone who remains true to herself in adversity. Thank you.

  2. thought of you this morning~& You know i think of You~Everyday~i waz wondering how you were! i too~having been to your beautiful place~am so Saddened~& Yet~I know that You have Such Power on the Planet~the Intense Power~You are a Chosen One~a Very Important Person to Us All! I Pray the Path fallz before you soon~so YOU KNOW~& get to Enjoy the Walk~Again! the Fear iz Real~the Place~So Beautiful~but az Jimmy told me here*YOU CAN MAKE THE MAGIC~WHERE~EVER~YOU GO!*PEACE TO YOU~YOUR HEART~YOUR SOUL~& MAY SPIRIT FLY~! I LOVE YOU!~ally~XO!

  3. A beautiful way to teach us all to grow and reach and not cling, and yet I cling to all you are teaching me - love and faith and joy and fear and to let go and embrace what comes.

  4. MariJo,

    It's good to be reminded that life continues on, whether we're ready or not. The key is to be willing! I too am experiencing a change in my living situation and find myself so scared and feeling vulnerable. Please know you are not alone. Come into the library any time for a hug! <3 Melisa